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May. 17th, 2003 10:30 amIf this is my mutant power, it sucks.
Went to see X2 last night. Ended up nearly having the theater to ourselves at the 10:00 showing. I managed to bawl like a baby all the way home.
See, here's the problem. I really liked X-Men. I wanted to see this one a lot. The husband did too, and we figured we'd take our weekly night out and go to the movies, seeing X2 to avoid the Matrix crowds. The plan worked like a charm, more or less.
The problem is, really, that I have a tendency to overempathize with movies. I can't go see horror movies or highly psychological films, because they freak me out. Like, for days. Seriously. I don't get scared, I get angry, because I'm seeing someone being victimized and I can't help. When it comes to "fight or flight," I'm almost always fight. Not that it does me a bit of good, really. Screws my whole emotional outlook for longer than is really healthy. As a result, I just don't do it. Not worth it for a 2-hour flick. Doesn't happen with books, just movies... probably the visual/sound components that do it... makes it too easy to lose my perspective.
So anyway, we went, and I cried when Jean Grey died (or didn't), I loved Nightcrawler, and I sat on the edge of my seat most of the time, and it was generally good. But. I was tired, and I basically sat through 2 hours of cruelty, hatred, and the suffering of innocent victims. Every good or positive thing in that film ended up being blocked or stifled or victimized somehow, and by the end, I was a basket case. I literally wept for like an hour, the whole drive home.
I don't /like/ overempathizing. I don't know whether to wish everyone else was like me, so I wouldn't keep having this problem, or whether I wasn't like that, so I wouldn't keep having this problem. I wish I could just enjoy it for what it is, instead of having to guard my emotional sanity like a bulldog every time I go to the movies. Sigh.
Oh. And if you wouldn't mind, save a happy thought for me that the Matrix 2 isn't going to do this to me as well, would you? I don't need this twice in one week.
Went to see X2 last night. Ended up nearly having the theater to ourselves at the 10:00 showing. I managed to bawl like a baby all the way home.
See, here's the problem. I really liked X-Men. I wanted to see this one a lot. The husband did too, and we figured we'd take our weekly night out and go to the movies, seeing X2 to avoid the Matrix crowds. The plan worked like a charm, more or less.
The problem is, really, that I have a tendency to overempathize with movies. I can't go see horror movies or highly psychological films, because they freak me out. Like, for days. Seriously. I don't get scared, I get angry, because I'm seeing someone being victimized and I can't help. When it comes to "fight or flight," I'm almost always fight. Not that it does me a bit of good, really. Screws my whole emotional outlook for longer than is really healthy. As a result, I just don't do it. Not worth it for a 2-hour flick. Doesn't happen with books, just movies... probably the visual/sound components that do it... makes it too easy to lose my perspective.
So anyway, we went, and I cried when Jean Grey died (or didn't), I loved Nightcrawler, and I sat on the edge of my seat most of the time, and it was generally good. But. I was tired, and I basically sat through 2 hours of cruelty, hatred, and the suffering of innocent victims. Every good or positive thing in that film ended up being blocked or stifled or victimized somehow, and by the end, I was a basket case. I literally wept for like an hour, the whole drive home.
I don't /like/ overempathizing. I don't know whether to wish everyone else was like me, so I wouldn't keep having this problem, or whether I wasn't like that, so I wouldn't keep having this problem. I wish I could just enjoy it for what it is, instead of having to guard my emotional sanity like a bulldog every time I go to the movies. Sigh.
Oh. And if you wouldn't mind, save a happy thought for me that the Matrix 2 isn't going to do this to me as well, would you? I don't need this twice in one week.
