Valentines Day, a reflection

My cafeteria here at work had milk chocolate covered strawberries. I am so feeling the love.

Reminders of love can be painful when you are not in a relationship but desperately want to be. I know I'm not watching any sappy movies tonight, stuck in divorce hell as I currently am. Just... there's got to be something better to do with that energy. Be your own valentine. Buy yourself the flowers and candy -- it'll make your place look better, and you could probably stand the treat. Fix yourself a fab dinner tonight or order in from your favorite place. Watch movies of over-the-top death and destruction.

I do not want to feel down. I want other people to be happy, not miserable, so that I can remember that misery is not the sum of life. I cannot change my feelings. I cannot change my situation. I cannot change that he does not love me anymore. I can decide in advance how to get through without letting this kill me, and stick to that plan as much as possible. I can do for myself what I would do for my best friend, and offer myself something distracting. I can get through this without letting it consume me.

It's a day about love, and any love you have... your family, your kids, your dog, your xbox, yourself... celebrate that. It's a gift.

*general purpose hugs*