It was a good day.

The boys and I spent the day together, and really it was pretty darn cool. I got them both haircuts with no fighting, I went to Value Village and found a pair of pants (and actually got to try things on!), I got the yard cleaned up, I got a turkey breast roasted, I got some dishes done, I got some knitting done, I got the boys outside to skate and get sunshine for a while, and I got to play with them on the Wii for a little while this evening. I also got to talk to a friend on the phone for a while, and that's always nice. Oh, and I got to drop off some clothes at the donation box, and that's good too.

Tomorrow morning, I'm planning on taking the kids up to their school to help with the volunteer cleanup day, and then I may use some of my free movie passes to take them to see something afterwards. There isn't anything I can show them out that I actually want to see, but I can live with it.

In addition to that, tomorrow, the goal is to finish cleaning my room and filing my papers, get caught up on laundry, change the bedding throughout the house, and do a bit of writing -- although realistically the writing isn't likely, given that the boys will be with me straight through Friday.

I have the strangest feeling of late... like I'm standing on a precipice, waiting for something to happen, something to come along and knock me over the edge. I'm not worried about falling, though... it's more like I was doing what I could to arrive here and suddenly ran out of road. I can't go back, so forward's the only real option no matter what, but I don't know where things are going to go from there. I'm in a holding pattern until my birthday, though, at least, and from there... who knows? It's an oddly anxious feeling, and yet at the same time, I have this weird sort of acceptance that comes when you know there's nothing you can do.

Anyway, I guess that's it for now. I'll try to post more when I have more to say.