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Waiting on the laundry to dry.
Mar. 10th, 2010 11:18 pmI should be doing dishes, really, but honestly that's like the last thing I want to do right now. I should work on Dresden or my homework, but I'm too tired to really get anywhere with either. Characters will happen tomorrow on the plane and Friday during the day, and that's all right. I'll get up in the morning when I get my kids ready for school and I'll do the dishes and take out the laundry then. I'm 3/4 packed -- just waiting for the laundry to finish, listening to the hum of the dryer.
This weekend I'm going to Cleveland, first to see![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
innocent_man and second to see the place that's evidently going to be home for the next few years.
It's so strange... I don't know if you've seen the remake of Sabrina, with Harrison Ford and Julia Ormond, but it's a really good movie. At the end of it, the whole family basically ambushes Linus (Ford) who just put Sabrina (Ormond) on a plane to Paris. He's standing there in the middle of his office, not knowing what to make of it all, when his mother says, "Linus, no mother could be prouder of her son. But I think it's time you ran away from home," and sends him after the girl he's fallen for.
That's what this feels like, this going off to school. It's belatedly running away from home, only it's running to something. I should have done this particular life event years and years ago, but what with one thing and another I never really did. Now I am, and it just feels right. I'm so happy about this, even a day later.
I told my children last night that I'd gotten into school, and we sat down and planned how this will work out. They're a bit sad and we will all miss each other, but they gave me permission to go and be happy. The thought of being away from my kids was tearing me up, but then I got the news that I got accepted and... there's still sadness there, but there's so much joy in what I'm going to do that I have to go looking for it. I've never felt like this in my whole life.
I know this won't be easy. I know there will be trials and troubles and weeping and gnashing of teeth. Right now, though, at this moment, I feel like I'm finally doing what I'm supposed to do in my life, and that is the absolute best thing ever. Even sitting here half-asleep, waiting for the laundry to dry. :)
This weekend I'm going to Cleveland, first to see
innocent_man and second to see the place that's evidently going to be home for the next few years. It's so strange... I don't know if you've seen the remake of Sabrina, with Harrison Ford and Julia Ormond, but it's a really good movie. At the end of it, the whole family basically ambushes Linus (Ford) who just put Sabrina (Ormond) on a plane to Paris. He's standing there in the middle of his office, not knowing what to make of it all, when his mother says, "Linus, no mother could be prouder of her son. But I think it's time you ran away from home," and sends him after the girl he's fallen for.
That's what this feels like, this going off to school. It's belatedly running away from home, only it's running to something. I should have done this particular life event years and years ago, but what with one thing and another I never really did. Now I am, and it just feels right. I'm so happy about this, even a day later.
I told my children last night that I'd gotten into school, and we sat down and planned how this will work out. They're a bit sad and we will all miss each other, but they gave me permission to go and be happy. The thought of being away from my kids was tearing me up, but then I got the news that I got accepted and... there's still sadness there, but there's so much joy in what I'm going to do that I have to go looking for it. I've never felt like this in my whole life.
I know this won't be easy. I know there will be trials and troubles and weeping and gnashing of teeth. Right now, though, at this moment, I feel like I'm finally doing what I'm supposed to do in my life, and that is the absolute best thing ever. Even sitting here half-asleep, waiting for the laundry to dry. :)
