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Trying to start writing my paper. Not having any luck -- sorta trapped in that space of limbo wherein you know sort of what you're going to write, but you haven't written it yet, and therefore you have nothing to write. Rather than continue to surf the internet aimlessly, I am instead writing here in the hopes that writing much of anything will get the writing juices flowing, which I can then turn and splash onto the page of my paper where I should be writing. I tell my students that when you start the introduction of your paper, it's really just freewriting for a couple of paragraphs to get to the body of your paper. You could as well write "monkey monkey monkey monkey monkey..." and you'd still get to the same place in your head. I am, naturally, bored by the prospect of seeing chains of monkeys grow across my page, so I'm doing a post instead. Go me.
My hair is freshly purpled at the moment. I find myself conflicted about this, because while I like it, I find my face turns sort of lilac around the edges while the excess dye bleeds out, and my fingers and hands do the same, because I can't not touch my hair, apparently. Also, my natural color goes a shade darker thanks to the purple, making my face look even paler... I wore a black and white striped shirt the other day, and Matt told me that I was something like 3/4 of the way to a Batman villain. Luckily, he seems to find that hot, as the statement was made with great and sincere appreciation. :) Still, I'll be glad when it washes out a bit more so that I've got my normal dark brown back with purple stripes that don't turn my sheets the same color when I sleep.
I'm writing about Dorian Gray, and how Wilde's use of aestheticism (and his complicated relationship therein) in turn complicates the Gothic genre that he uses. I've seen other essays that edge up to what I'm talking about, but none that talk about the same thing, which is good for me. The worst part about this is that first I have to write a 10 page presentation that largely situates the work in terms of other works, along with doing a bit of close reading and interpretation. Then I have to expand that into a 20 page paper for the end of the year. Now, granted, the 20 page paper will be easier once the 10 pager is written, but figuring out what I'm leaving out of the 10 page version is not the simplest thing. I also realized, belatedly, that there's a book I absolutely should have and I just don't, and I have no more time to obtain it for the 10 page version. I am full of argh. I can't waste time being sad over it, but I'll have to move forward instead knowing my research will be incomplete. Blargh.
Okay. Time to put off putting off any more and begin. If I do well, I'll get... oh, half an hour on the Xbox. That would be a nice reward. Onward!
My hair is freshly purpled at the moment. I find myself conflicted about this, because while I like it, I find my face turns sort of lilac around the edges while the excess dye bleeds out, and my fingers and hands do the same, because I can't not touch my hair, apparently. Also, my natural color goes a shade darker thanks to the purple, making my face look even paler... I wore a black and white striped shirt the other day, and Matt told me that I was something like 3/4 of the way to a Batman villain. Luckily, he seems to find that hot, as the statement was made with great and sincere appreciation. :) Still, I'll be glad when it washes out a bit more so that I've got my normal dark brown back with purple stripes that don't turn my sheets the same color when I sleep.
I'm writing about Dorian Gray, and how Wilde's use of aestheticism (and his complicated relationship therein) in turn complicates the Gothic genre that he uses. I've seen other essays that edge up to what I'm talking about, but none that talk about the same thing, which is good for me. The worst part about this is that first I have to write a 10 page presentation that largely situates the work in terms of other works, along with doing a bit of close reading and interpretation. Then I have to expand that into a 20 page paper for the end of the year. Now, granted, the 20 page paper will be easier once the 10 pager is written, but figuring out what I'm leaving out of the 10 page version is not the simplest thing. I also realized, belatedly, that there's a book I absolutely should have and I just don't, and I have no more time to obtain it for the 10 page version. I am full of argh. I can't waste time being sad over it, but I'll have to move forward instead knowing my research will be incomplete. Blargh.
Okay. Time to put off putting off any more and begin. If I do well, I'll get... oh, half an hour on the Xbox. That would be a nice reward. Onward!
