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personal life update
Jul. 19th, 2003 08:37 pmDavid and I have (through more painful conversations than anyone should have in the course of a week) hit upon a plan. We sill stay together as friends -- for friends we still are -- until he can determine if there can ever be anything more again. He'll be starting therapy toward the end of August/beginning of September. We may try to move partially out of my parents' house at that point, even if it's just a place for him while he's in ROTC, so he doesn't have to leave home at 4 AM for PT three times a week. It'll also be a place he can go to get a little space, and we could all be together in town during the weekends and such. Basically, I think we could all use the space to hang out away from my mom's house, and then if that goes well, we'll move out in the spring together. It may be that at the end of everything that we split up anyway, but at least we're going to work at it for now.
I still have no car. I suspect that I would have to mortgage my soul for financing right now, so I may end up waiting until September and seeing what can be done then (when I have a down payment and David has school money and possibly a part-time job that's salaried... cross fingers for us).
Oh, and in the "something new for me to sulk about" category, I just heard that there's an industry party on Wednesday night at GenCon that I've heard nothing about. If you hear nothing, it generally means you're not invited, so I can't quite bring myself to ask. I know I've only been doing this for a couple of years, but it seems sometimes like I'm not making any serious inroads to the "industry" despite my efforts. I'm worried about all sorts of stupid things because of this, which all boil down to "nobody likes me, and I wanted to play too... Waaaaaah." I know all is actually okay. I know it will be fine. I know I'm actually making friends and all sorts of cool stuff. It's just been an uber-stressful month, so grant me some latitude and feel free to ignore that particular pity party over in the corner. I will live.
I still have no car. I suspect that I would have to mortgage my soul for financing right now, so I may end up waiting until September and seeing what can be done then (when I have a down payment and David has school money and possibly a part-time job that's salaried... cross fingers for us).
Oh, and in the "something new for me to sulk about" category, I just heard that there's an industry party on Wednesday night at GenCon that I've heard nothing about. If you hear nothing, it generally means you're not invited, so I can't quite bring myself to ask. I know I've only been doing this for a couple of years, but it seems sometimes like I'm not making any serious inroads to the "industry" despite my efforts. I'm worried about all sorts of stupid things because of this, which all boil down to "nobody likes me, and I wanted to play too... Waaaaaah." I know all is actually okay. I know it will be fine. I know I'm actually making friends and all sorts of cool stuff. It's just been an uber-stressful month, so grant me some latitude and feel free to ignore that particular pity party over in the corner. I will live.
