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Head pain.
Feb. 7th, 2010 11:40 amOkay, I need to get back on my multivitamins and such, because this sucks. I suspect I'm dipping into deficiency levels on something.. not sure what, but something, and I need to fix it. Maybe magnesium, given the head pain. Maybe potassium. Feh.
Need to eat, but things aren't looking very much like food to me. Also seem to be forgetting how to cook. Not that I'm really forgetting, mind you, but normally you know how you walk into a kitchen and think "I need to eat something" and then you find things and get out a pan and just make the food? I'm actively having to work to get from the "I need to eat something" to get past a sort of blank spot in my brain to the rest of it. Cooking has fallen off the back of the truck, as it were, and that's not actually okay given that ain't no body else going to step up and feed my children, and that I can't afford to eat out on anything like a regular basis.
Want things that are actively bad for me, like the Columbia City Ale House's green chile tuna melt with chips and a cider. Want cokes over the past few days like you wouldn't believe. I mean, seriously, it's gone from not craving them at all to craving them and wanting multiple ones a day in nothing flat. I know I self-medicate with them, but seriously. This is ridiculous. I need to figure out what my body thinks they're fixing and get that shit straightened out. I get that I'm having a stress response, to which I say... okay, whatever. I'm willing to indulge it a bit. I'm not willing to deal with this as an ongoing issue.
I'm going to get up and get some lunch/breakfast, as I haven't eaten yet today, and some coffee, and see if I can get the soda monkey off my back, and take my blood pressure meds and some pain meds for my headache. I need to post a character I promised for Matt, I need to read a shitload of literary theory essays, I need to finish reading another book or six, (only two for class, a couple for papers, and the rest because I either need to return them to their rightful owners or because I promised) and I need to work my shift today from noon to four. And I really, really need to not curl up in a little ball until the world goes away. Wish me luck.
Need to eat, but things aren't looking very much like food to me. Also seem to be forgetting how to cook. Not that I'm really forgetting, mind you, but normally you know how you walk into a kitchen and think "I need to eat something" and then you find things and get out a pan and just make the food? I'm actively having to work to get from the "I need to eat something" to get past a sort of blank spot in my brain to the rest of it. Cooking has fallen off the back of the truck, as it were, and that's not actually okay given that ain't no body else going to step up and feed my children, and that I can't afford to eat out on anything like a regular basis.
Want things that are actively bad for me, like the Columbia City Ale House's green chile tuna melt with chips and a cider. Want cokes over the past few days like you wouldn't believe. I mean, seriously, it's gone from not craving them at all to craving them and wanting multiple ones a day in nothing flat. I know I self-medicate with them, but seriously. This is ridiculous. I need to figure out what my body thinks they're fixing and get that shit straightened out. I get that I'm having a stress response, to which I say... okay, whatever. I'm willing to indulge it a bit. I'm not willing to deal with this as an ongoing issue.
I'm going to get up and get some lunch/breakfast, as I haven't eaten yet today, and some coffee, and see if I can get the soda monkey off my back, and take my blood pressure meds and some pain meds for my headache. I need to post a character I promised for Matt, I need to read a shitload of literary theory essays, I need to finish reading another book or six, (only two for class, a couple for papers, and the rest because I either need to return them to their rightful owners or because I promised) and I need to work my shift today from noon to four. And I really, really need to not curl up in a little ball until the world goes away. Wish me luck.
